When Tom first mentioned in January of this year that he wanted to run another 100-person Quest this year, but that this time he wanted it to be a Prophecy Quest, I immediately thought; “wow, I am going to have to cap participation in this Quest to the first 300 people who apply!” as I think that number is all the questers I could fit on Spirit Hill.
You see I have overheard conversations both between people on a spiritual path and between those who are not, and have felt in people an underlying fear that is almost crippling people’s ability to move forward in their lives, to risk. They recognize the need to change but they don’t. I hear it all the time. “What is going on?” “Why does everything seem to be falling apart?” “Where is this chaos coming from?” “What can I do about any of it?” “What can I count on for safety? for me? for my family?” “WHAT SHOULD I DO?” The uncertainty and confusion is palpable even amongst people who are not asking these questions consciously.
So I thought that when Tom offered to us a new Quest, given him by Grandfather, that is ideally situated for these times, and, thus, gave us the possibility of getting answers to the questions in so many people’s heart, people would flock to the opportunity. After all, we all know and trust Tom’s guidance, we have relied on the teachings of Grandfather, and countless people have experienced the clarity and guidance of the more broad-based Vision Quest (and seen benefits to their lives from it). I expected an overwhelming flood of applicants!
That didn’t happen. I think we will end up a bit shy of a hundred people. And that is fine, as we only want those who are deeply interested and called to this sacred Quest. However, in response to questions from others about it, I find myself saying things like, “I am baffled”, and “I am puzzled” by the response.
Unfortunately, the words ‘baffled’ and ‘puzzled’ in the dictionary are linked with confusion, and I am not confused by this situation. Physically, a baffle is a wall or partition that slows the movement of something through a chamber. For instance, in modern wood stoves, there is a baffle that slows the movement of smoke, and the gases that result from burning wood, through the burn chamber. Because the gas requires a higher temperature to combust than wood does, the baffle holds the gas in the chamber long enough for it to reach that temperature so a complete, efficient burn results.
I think this is what is happening in the world right now. People know that they need to do something about the global situation they find themselves in, and that they need to express a different answer than they have used in the past, but they just don’t act. Most even have a sense of what is being called from them, but the tendency to stay in the familiar remains too strong. The old answers, whether physical or spiritual, still hold too much sway even though they no longer provide the depth of meaning and purpose they once did. And the world is not responding to those old patterns.
Sadly, or perhaps I should say, frighteningly, it seems humanity needs more heat to achieve psychic combustion. The baffles in place in society and in the human psyche are demanding we stay in the ‘burn chamber’ until we are transformed by fire into something more pure, more human, more divine. While there is plenty of heat now, it has obviously proven insufficient to ignite the dross that still weighs us down, so we cannot yet find release. We continue to hold to our old answers rather than surrender them to the new that seeks birth.
I don’t know what your answers will be, but I do know that you will not find them until you let go of your old anchors of meaning and belief, and surrender to the Great Mystery that is Life. The fire is going to burn away the old, and we are going to stay in that fire until we ‘combust’. The more stubbornly we resist the heat, the more we pretend it isn’t there, the more we hope that it will go away in time, or that something magical will happen that will fix the problems in the world, the more intense the heat will become, until, finally, with a sudden burst of light, it will explode and destroy what is holding us back. Then only simplicity will remain. Of course, I would prefer you not take that path to your answers, it is too destructive. Act now; the old way is dead, and the new is there, waiting for you.
I am writing this not as a pitch for the Prophecy Quest—it is basically too late for that. But I seek to send a warning to you about settling for the underlying tension in life, about holding on to the old (which hasn’t served you so well, after all), about continuing to look outside of yourself for security and the answers you need. The answers are there, but they are in a different, unfamiliar form—and they are inside you. However, through your resistance to the new, you are demanding that life turn up the heat in your life even more! You are demanding more pain. And it just isn’t necessary—unless it is.
You will be changed; earth and life demand it. You can choose to be an active participant or a passive participant, but you will participate and you will change. Examine your beliefs, your fears, your wounds, and your anger to see what you are holding on to. Especially look to your complacency and your hope that everyone else is the problem and that everything will be fine if only they would change! The answers are not external. You need to change and that will only happen through a risk that will lead you to a new answer.
Look deeper to the Truth that lies within all you are attached to, or all you hold dear. You already are whole. You already are free. You already hold inside you the answer you seek. You already possess the safety you need. You have only to claim it by recognizing it! Nothing can happen to you that you don’t consent to, whether consciously or unconsciously. You only have to listen more carefully to your inner resonance with what your teachers have been telling you. Surrender to life, to the Great Mystery; it knows what it is doing. You don’t.